for the past 4 days Bella and I have visited Dianna three times. I sat with her during her lunch time. She still is able to feed herself but as the picture shows I was helping her some of the time. she was a bit on the edge and got anxious a few times showing some frustration with herself. They have been having difficulties with her taking her meds and this may be the reason for the anxiety.
When I saw her today she was in her broda and resting with her eyes closed all the time I was there. She was not able to open her eyes for any length of time. Only once did she open her eyes to look at me and smile. It was very discouraging and filled me with remorse as I had a few tears on the way to the car. I left after staying only one hour.
It is clear to me now that Dianna cannot process thought or ideas. While she likes to talk much of what she says doesn't make sense. It is a tough time right now seeing her like this and knowing that it will only get worse.
PS..couldn't find the pic...it was only me helping Di eat.
HI Dad...I read your blog post and it brought tears to my eyes. I can understand your sadness and discouraged state. There are good days and bad days for Mom as you know, and it sounds like she's hit another rough patch. I'm choosing to believe that despite everything she's facing with this disease, she's got the strength and the spirit to see herself through to her end.
ReplyDeleteAlthough it's beautiful here and nice to be away from daily routines, I wish I was there with you. Les and I cooked dinner last night here at Viva, and were reminiscing about your visits to the Baja with us, and the many, many lovely memories we have of our time together. We love you Dad and you're not alone! Take care of yourself...give Mom and Bella a big hub.